Residental of U.D

I really miss my HoE... Now i dont know wad to do. We stay in touch but so seldom to meet. I really miss my HoE.... I still love HoE. Everynight whwn i go to sleep i always think about HoE, and this morning when i woke up, i think again about my love. I really miss HoE... Can HoE see how much i need HoE right now...!!! Last night i sent message ti Radio with a hope i can share my problem and they all give me the best one solution. And it’s work... The announcer gave me solution, and i’m so happy to heard that... But i’m not too hopeful... But still walkin what around me. I miss everything about hoE... Hopely HoE feel the same the way i felt

I MISS YOU, 1..

I dont know what shoul i do now yo forget u for a while... i learned and i cry all i did. I’m still young, 1. I’m just need you advice. I really miss you 1. Everything you moved i can’t forget. I miss your lips when you kiss me. I miss your tired face. I miss your smell. I miss you so much...

Jan 27, 2009 - March 12, 2009

Gw tw ini adalah bagian dari warna yang gw inginkan dalam hidup...
merasakan tangisan agar tw kelak apa arti bahagia itu..
merasakan hancur agar tw krlak melangkah dengan benar
gw yang mencintai dia, kini harus rela melepas dia..
gw harus terima dengan lapang dada..
gw gx bohong ma diri gw,
gw nangis..... ya gw mnangis......
selalu ada hikmah dari setiap cobaan dan langkah hidup...
dan gw tw Allah gx kan buat semua ini sia- sia.....
Selamat Tinggal, 1
terimakasih atas waktu- waktu yang indah beserta kegelapan yang kau berikan, km akan selalu ada di hatiku......

Terimakasih.....!

“…I Don’t wanna dream about all the things that never were….”

Itulah penggalan lagu dari Britney Spears dengan tajuk nya ‘Out From under” mungkin lagu ini bisa mewakili perasaan yang ingin gw pupuk di tahun 2009 ini. Di lirik itu disebutkan “ aku tak’ mau lagi mengharapkan segla hal yang tidak akan mungkin terjadi”. Dan itulah yang ingin gw pupuk di tahun ini setelah tahun kemarin yang penuh dengan kesengsaraan gw akan cinta morat- marit mendapatkan cinta. Menangis untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang tidak mungkin gw dapetin. Itukan Bodoh…!!!

Dan di Tahun ini sudah cukup gw untuk bersedih, murung, berduka durjana, mengharapkan sesuatu yang gx mungkin gw dapat. Gw Kuat…di tahun ini gw kan jadi sesuatu yang baru yang lebih tegar untuk menghadapi sesuatu yang terjadi dalam hidup gw. Persetan dengan cinta….!!!

Gw pengen nikmati hidup ini dengan cara gw, sedikit keras untuk mendapatkan apa yang gw mau, dan kalaupun tidak, itu bukan keberuntungan gw, layaknya sekarang yang gw dapatin. Ok gw bahagia gw gx sendiri lagi … gw dah punya pacar. Tapia pa yang gw dapet care sedikit aja gx…!!! Dia lebih cenderung cuek abiz.

Tapi itulah memeng bener apa yang kebanyakan orang bgilang waktu kadang- kadang menjawab dan memberi kita jawaban atas segala pertanyaan yang kadang- kadang gx bisa terjawab.

Dan itu tadi pagi gw dapetin solusi yaaa.. mungkin bisa untuk ngadepetin pacar gw yang super cuek, tapi gw juga gx berani untuk ninggalin dia karena gw sayang ma dia.

Ok itu cinta yang gw alami untuk kedepan nya gw janji pada diri gw sendiri no more cry in my life for the stupid things ….

Gw gx mau lagi peduli tentang apapun yang bakalan nyakitin gw. I wanna be something new. Begitupun dengan kisah cinta gw yang lagi gw mainkan ini, kalo pun dia sayang ma gw, gw pun sayang. Kalo pun gx ya sudah…!!

Kalo pun tetep gx care yaudah.. gw gx mau musingin dengan sesuatu hala yang nihil yang ujungnya bakalan bikin w gx bener. Better for me untuk have fun ma temen- temen gw nambahin temen biar tambah gokil. Gw pengen bahagia dengan cara gw sendiri, cara gw sendiri. Gw gx mau ngeluh, nangis..!!

AAAAA….

I JUST WANT TO ENJOY LIFE THIS LIVE

I don’t know from where I started. It’s bee so close but yet too meaning full for me..

It’s all about my life…My day And it’s all about my February Why I told like that because all things happened in my February

Start from the V-Day

It was so crazy to thing that day, Some people said. That the V-day was grateful and full of love.. I still believe as long as I can understand, But what happened to me. I’m not said that I not happy to spent my V-Day I’m so thank you to God to think that I was. But it is not enough for me.. I’m still learn, I don’t know where I stop. I realize that I have a lover now. But it’s mean nothing, I felt I still lonely, not warm like what I want, not close like what I want. But so far my lover is what I looking for. It sounds so freaky right? Yes.. I did. Love is a crazy thing. What I want is not like what I want anymore… Sometimes I hate my lover but in another times I really missed it. I want my lover always beside me. Always hold me tight and kiss me slow. I still understand that my lovers is not a single love, and it this situation, I need much attention of understanding. Haaahahahahaha……Love.. Love..

Until now I never know what love does means. I just enjoy but not careless. I just play the game of lover but not too seem like a loser who always addicted. Until right now there’s a lot things happened to, stared from my break up my relationship with my best friend, meat with the ugly man, who I planned for my another love. Ah.. Break it down… I’m don’t care actually.

i dont know what the reason me put this month theme " Lovefallicious" maybe at the end of month i will found. but the point is what i felt yesterday,

is cry

let me share to y’all what happened yesterday

should be, yesterday was a greatfull day but there’s something stuck in my heart and i really dont know what is that exacltly. Yesterday my love sleep over im my home by my invitation, but my love brought the cousin. For the early is not cool anymore, i sick. And my love not brought me the joy. But after a lot of share. The cousin is cool and i’m so comfortable with em. But it that’s why i cried,

I cried at early morning when i drove my bike. Tottal i so cried loudest and don’t care what people heard or not. Im just wanna out my feel.

I don't know if I can yell any louder,
How many times have I
kicked you outer here?
Or said something insulting?


I can be so mean when I wanna be,
I am capable of realy anything,
I could cut you into peices,
But my heart is, broken.


Please, don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come
right back to this
Please don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious,
What is it with you that
makes me act like this,
I've never been this nasty,
Can't you tell that this all
is just a contest,
The one that wins will
be the one that hits the hardest,
But baby I don't mean it,
I mean it, I promise

I forgot to say outloud,
How beautiful you really are to me,
I can't be without,
Your my perfect little punching bag,
And I need you,
I'm sorry.


I always say how I don't need you,
But it's always gonna come
right back to this,
Please don't leave me,

Please, Please don't leave me.

Fear of Love

Now I’m in the little mission

Try to find who’s the right and what’s the real

I heard there’s a lot people die when try to find it

I’m still young and should learn much

Now it’s part of me

About my rule and my love

I’m just little boy who tries to taste the water

The water tries to froze

I love my love now

But now I find the fear

The fear of love

Will it be gonna kill me slowly inside?

I just want to find happiness in my own way

Just let me know about faithful and believe about trust

I’m not a sinner and I’m not a saint

And I know that life is a big test

I love my love now

Will it fade fast?

I love my love now

Will it kill me back?

I wanna lost my brain

And my deep heart

When I think about fear of love

Anymore…….